To GC
she goes
waiting three days dead body
when i heard you were close
to dying i looked for the cell
phone wire to recharge the battery
i imagine torts the sea short swells
and the clouds over the vast
distance between you and i
we'd talk until the myths
destroyed us and you'd say
want a dollar and i say yes
because saying no
led to impass
where we might be honest
i find
i find myself
getting lost
lost finding
getting myself
i find getting
lost myself
this goes beyond
finding i hurt
missing her
her missing
beyond missing
beyond her
i tell myself
this is right
this is better
where eyes
i tell myself
her eyes
should look
looking sad
slightly cross
eyed looking
i find myself
without her
i drive
i weep
drunk on death's wine
she was my under
standing
cool wind through hale koa
and perky grasses
the air is wet avocado
tree glows and there,
the hisbiscus flower looks
down a hidden hill
tree glows and there,
the hisbiscus flower looks
down a hidden hill
i'm somewhere
i'm somewhere
plot cooridinates
find a map
a long freeway
smooth cement
over prior landscape
no exit
until sleight of hand
twists and turns
to skateboard park
red centered yellow hisbiscus
shade of planted
spindly trees
scant relief
from a pesky sun
mental maps go back
to the hospital
parking for fee lot
the long road
in is less
than microcosms
To RA
Cloud of the bright
immense sky,
In routing night
looking I
See by moon light
passing by.
The Hospital
I learn even at the last
To be buried beyond complacency
I want my body like yours
Under a lawn indifferent to the sky
To John
Trying on the rags of time
Trying on time
Trying
Dying on the steering wheel
Dying on the wheel
Dying
Sighing on the breast of birds
Sighing the breast
Sighing
